Saturday, December 18, 2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

Sweden

Isak and I have now been in Sweden for almost two weeks. Life in Thailand seems so far away! The weather here has been a complete opposite to Thailand with some days with -20 degrees and some days with snow storm. It is really beautiful here now with all the snow and when the sun is shining (for an hour a day at the best) it looks so pretty.
We have had a busy couple of weeks. The first week back was filled with fixing the add for the paper, planning the funeral, get rid of all the equipment that dad had (a bed, two wheelchairs, a lift, a chair for the shower, all the left over drugs) etc etc. Me, mum and dad's cousin also went to see dad one day. I have only seen one dead person before, my grandfather more than 20 years ago. Dad looked very peaceful and it really looked like his soul was somewhere else, hopefully in a much better place.
Isak and I are staying with mum which is nice.
During these weeks I have seen my friend Carina and her 3 weeks old baby Nelly a few times, I have been to our house a couple of times, I have done some birthday shopping, I have had Christmas dinner with work, dinner with Anders and his family a couple of times, Christmas party in Ale, lunch with Sigrid, fika with Jens, bookclub meeting one night, fika with Maria etc. Mum has helped a lot with Isak and as always he is really happy most of the time. Last night he slept extremly badly, he woke up crying at midnight, around 3am, 6am and then 7am. Not sure why, could be an ear infection?
This morning I visited work. I am really starting to look forward to going back. The company is doing well right now and there are lots of projects on the go so there will be lots to do! Stina and Martin came over to mum's this afternoon with some nice flowers and when they left mum, Isak and I went to celebrate my cousin Andreas on his birthday. Andreas and his fiance Karin bought a new house only about a month ago and finally we got to see it! It looks great!
So my time here is and has been very busy and I am trying to make the most of it. The fact that dad is not with us anymore is hard to understand and believe but it is very sad and I miss him a lot.
In only a few days Isak and I will go travelling again. A total of 5 flights will take us to Adelaide and the rest of the family. This will be the longest I have ever been away from Jakob :-( At least I know he is having an amazing time with grandma and poppa and of course daddy.

Thailand

I took hundreds of pictures in Thailand but have not had a good look at all of them. Picked out a few quickly to show you how amazing it was! Beautiful sunset on Klong Dao Beach

Adam and Isak having a swim. Isak loved it and only laughed when he got water in his face and eyes.


Soccer on the beach...



Me attending a Thai festival with the staff from the resort one evening in November. I found this information about it:

The most colour festival during the year is Loy Krathong held on the full moon of the 12th lunar month (usually in November). This is a festival to pay respects to the Mother of Water to ask for forgiveness for polluting the water in the past. Loy means to float and a krathong is a kind of bowl.


Jakob and I went elephant riding one day. He was a bit scared in the beginning but started relaxing after a while. Lots of fun to do something just the two of us.





Jakob and his friend Lucas relaxing after dinner at one of our favourite resturants on the beach.


Our beautiful and amazing boys Jakob and Isak!


The first snake that we saw at our resort. The second one I didn't get a photo of.

Jakob playing before dinner at Long Beach.

Isak 10 months

About to have breakfast the morning Isak and I were leaving.

Jakob posing for the camera.

Isak just before he learnt to crawl.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Rest in peace Dad!

Just after 2 am Sunday morning dad passed away. Mum, my brother and dad's sister were by his side. I didn't make it home from Thailand but I was very glad to know that he had mum, Anders and Maggi there.
After his birthday earlier in the week he got really tired and on Thursday his condition got much worse. From Thursday night/Friday he slept more or less the whole time. He seemed to be in no pain and when he took his last breath he looked very peaceful from what I have been told. I think it happened just the way he wanted it to happen. He told me that he hoped that he would one day just go to sleep and not wake up again. And he wanted to die at home. He got what he wanted.
Isak and I left Thailand Sunday afternoon after 6 wonderful weeks at Lanta Sea House. It was very sad to leave but it feels good to be home and be with the rest of the family.

For those of you who don't know, dad was diagnosed with a tumor in his brain just over a year ago. A few months ago he had his last chemo treatment. Throughout this difficult time he has stayed very positive and always planned for the future. At the same time he has made the most out of each day and for example he started smoking again (he quit over 20 years ago).

I am glad that Isak got to meet his morfar even though I feel sad that they didn't get more time together.





Jakob and mofar have always had a very close and special relationship.